30 DAY LETTER CHALLENGE: DAY 20 – THE ONE WHO BROKE MY HEART THE HARDEST

Dear CW Network,

Thanks. A. Lot.  I just found out that you cancelled one of my favorite shows last night.  I am heartbroken.  Granted, it seems silly and trivial, but the show meant a lot to me.  There are a lot of other things/people that I could be addressing here, but I really don’t have the energy to get into it with anything/anyone else.  Ringer was one of the best shows I’ve seen in a long time, and it had the misfortune of signing on with you.  At first, when the rumors started, I refused to believe it.  I had hope that it would all add up in the end, that the itunes sales and the CW.com viewings would be enough to save this show.  It was brilliant.  It was not a mindless show.  You had to think when watching it.  I must admit that I had struggled to keep up with the storylines and I didn’t get it at first.  But the more I watched, the more I got it, the better I liked it, and the more I was looking forward to Tuesday nights.

What I want to know is where your loyalty is.  It’s not with the fans – I know that much.  I haven’t watched the season finale – now the series finale – yet, because I wanted to know one way or another, when the credits rolled, the future of the show.  And now that there is none, I feel deflated.  But I have hope…  maybe the producers and directors will do a movie to tie up loose ends, the way they did with Firefly.  Or maybe some other network will pick it up.  I was so excited last summer and fall because there would be not one but two Sarah Michelle Gellars in it. And then it got better, because one of them was evil/crazy and the other was redeemable and very rootable.  I am very sorry that you cannot recognize a hit show when you see one.  You have to admit, despite everything, Ringer was solid gold, and it had HUGE potential.

You stink.  Meanies.

D

Freaky Friday: TV Shows I Watch

I got this idea from one of my high school peers (and now friends) who does it on her blog and who was kind enough to let me use it as well.  I think I am going to trade off weeks between Freaky Friday Lists and Friday Flash Fiction, to keep things interesting around here.

I am doing TV shows this week, and starting off, I don’t even know how many I have.  Possibly more than ten now, since I started watching a new one a couple weeks ago.  We’ll see, though!

1.  Once Upon A Time – I love this.  Love, love, love!  Starring Ginnifer Goodwin and Jennifer Morrison, it’s about fairytales, but with a twist!  I love my fairytales!  One of the best show concepts I’ve seen since Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

2.  Desperate Housewives - this show barely counts anymore since it only has like 2 episodes left, but I have been watching since the very beginning.  It fascinates me – don’t ask me why – but I’m okay about it going off the air.  It’s been 8 years, and it’s time.  Plus, they had to go and ruin it by killing off the only male character I actually liked.

3.  Bones –  Okay, okay, I admit it!  I only watch this show to get an eyeful of the ever-yummy David Boreanaz.  It is definitely not the icky crime scenes.

4.  Smash - At first, I was excited about this show (A “grown-up Glee!”), but now I am not so sure.  Not seeing the point, is all.  It seems to be taking 3 steps forward and 4 steps back every week.  I don’t really get it.  And also.  Dislike most of the characters.

5.  Castle - I just know that this show’s collective fan base is wondering when the heck Beckett and Castle are going to get together (like that).  They’ve been dancing around it all season, ever since she got shot and he said “I love you” just before she passed out.  Castle – she remembers.  Are you sure you want to be with this liar?

6.  Glee – Music to my ears.

7.  Ringer – TWO Sarah Michelle Gellars.  Enough said.

8.  Modern Family - Most of the time, I do not laugh at this show.  But I get it.  Somewhat.

9.  Revenge – Deliciousness!  And oh, Victoria reminds me of Mortica from the Addams family.  Emily is really Amanda, and she loves Jack, but she’s with Daniel to get at Victoria, who sent Amanda’s father to jail for something he didn’t do.

10.  Grey’s Anatomy – Hospital drama that will never ever happen in real life.  Ever.  Or maybe some of it would, but most of it wouldn’t.

11.  Private Practice – More doctor drama!

12.  Scandal – Shondra Rhimes created it.  I’m sold.

13.  Grimm – Creepy fairy tale creatures.  Mysteries.  Cute detective.  Eeeee!

14.  Fringe – show is like the X-Files in many ways, but instead of aliens, they have different universes that are a lot alike.  Weird stuff happens.  There are things called shapeshifters that can look like dead people.  and also a creepy David Robert Jones.  If you don’t want to know, don’t ask.  It’s very complicated and hard to explain.

Good grief, I watch 14 shows!  How many of these shows do you watch?  Do you watch any that are not on my list?

 

Letter to SMG

Dear Sarah,

I know your birthday was last Saturday, so happy belated birthday.  I hope you have another fantastic year ahead of you.  I am praying that Ringer will have a second season – we find out in May.  I still have the season 1 finale on my DVR, unwatched.  I am thinking I should wait to watch it after I know whether or not the show is going to be renewed.  The show is awesome, by the way.  I love it so much.  Last summer, when I found out about it, I was grinning from ear to ear - TWO SARAHS!  Can it get any better than that?  It did – because one of you is evil (Siobhan, Bridget wasn’t even driving when your son was killed…  your ex-husband/ex-boyfriend was) and the other one is redemptive and very root-able.  I love Bridget.  I think Siobhan is nuts.  You do it all so well.

Whenever I see a picture of you with your little Charlotte, I can’t help smiling.  She is gorgeous, just like you.  I imagine you are a wonderful mother to her – how could you not be?  You’re simply amazing.  I was young (you’re only 4 years older than me) when you started your work on All My Children but I followed some of your storyline on it.  My grandmother watched it, and for a time, in the summer, my parents did too (or else it seemed like they did because it was always on).  I thought, that girl (you) is awesome.  Little did I know that later, you would get the part of Buffy Summers in the show Buffy the Vampire Slayer.  Words often fail me when I try to explain just how much that show meant to me.  I understand what Buffy went through in high school – the ostracism by her peers, the loneliness, the feeling that the weight of the world was on her shoulders, all of it.  I think part of the reason why I love it so much is because you put your whole heart, mind and soul into being Buffy, as you do with all the characters you play.  It’s so obvious.  And the other reason why I love Buffy is because I got to see someone (female) being strong even though everything and everyone was out to get her.  I cannot even begin to tell you how many times she has helped me put on my own “resolve face” in order to do what I need to do.  Thank you for being Buffy.  Without that show, I wouldn’t be where I am today.

Buffy Summers once said, “The hardest thing to do in this world is to live in it.”  I know from personal experience that is very true.  I am a childhood cancer survivor – neuroblastoma – and a survivor of what came afterwards (brain stem damage that led to physical disabilities, hearing loss, a speech impediment.  And also scoliosis from the radiation).  I think Buffy the Vampire Slayer means more to me because of it.  I have a little black and white shih tzu named Buffy.  And if I ever get another dog, I’m planning on calling her (because it has to be a girl, right?) Bridget.    I’m an aspiring novelist, and who knows?  Maybe someday our paths will cross and I’ll be able to give you a hug like I’ve wanted to do for so long now.

XOXO

Catch-up

It’s been a while since  I’ve done a gratitude post (I’m a slacker, I know), so I might as well start it up again today.  This week, my sister Jacqueline is home for her spring break, and it’s nice to have someone (human, not canine) here, plus my niece was here Tuesday and yesterday too, and that’s always fun.  She’s a smart one, that kid.  We had fudgicles for dessert last night and she opted for the last ice cream sandwich instead.  BUT when she was done with it, she wanted bites of mine.  I can’t say no to her.  Like EVER.  She has me wrapped around her little finger so tight.  Obviously, if what she wanted to do was dangerous I would not let her do it…  but…  A little more ice cream never hurt anybody, right?  Haha.

I am excited to go see The Hunger Games tomorrow afternoon with Jacqueline.  I am grateful that my dentist appointment went well yesterday (you know you’re getting old when you grew up with said dentist – it’s a small town), no cavities, and he was able to temporarily fix one of my front teeth which was very sensitive and also occasionally painful.  I think it had a small chip in it – the enamel was wearing away or something.

Confession:  I am ashamed to admit that, even at age 30, I still bite my fingernails.  I should probably stop that, no?  However, it’s really hard for me to use nail clippers on my left hand, since my right one has a mind of its own.  Figuratively speaking, of course.  I didn’t bring this up yesterday at the dentist, but I have a feeling that it probably has something to do with what’s going on with my tooth.

I am grateful for the fact that Sarah Michelle Gellar is back in TOP form on TV’s Ringer.  Interesting storylines, betrayal, cute guys, cliffhangers like every single week…  the show leaves me breathless.  Last week, I finally caught up (after a week-long marathon of DVRed episodes).  SMG plays twins – one’s evil, one’s… well, let’s just say redemptive.  On Buffy the Vampire Slayer, SMG had multiple roles as the show evolved and man, she does it sooooo well.  Ringer is without a doubt one of my favorite shows.

I am grateful for everything good in my life.  Sometimes I am even grateful for the bad things, because I know they are necessary.  Everything can’t be sunshine and rainbows all the time.  

I say a prayer of thanks every time I read on Facebook that a child with cancer is doing well, and beg God for mercy when a child isn’t doing as well as I hoped.  

Please keep 10 year old Daniella in your prayers as she was just put on a breathing monitor.  She has Ewing’s sarcoma, and it has spread, and she’s very uncomfortable.  She cannot stand to be touched because it hurts too much.  Her family lives in South Africa, and her mother Elize is trying her best to do everything for Daniella and her two siblings herself, often relying on the kindness and care for friends and strangers alike.  Please, Lord, have mercy.