Made Perfect In Weakness

“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9a (NIV)

Most of the time when I think I can’t do something, it’s because I do not have any energy. Everything seems too hard. I just want to crawl into bed and hide under the covers. I don’t feel like doing anything, so I don’t. But I am not on this earth to do nothing. What would be the point of that?

My views on God and religion have changed quite a bit since I was in high school. I have seen more, I understand more, and I love more.

I also understand less.

For example, I don’t understand how people can be so intolerant of others. To me, there isn’t any God in intolerance. Sometimes it is disguised as ignorance, but it is still intolerance. My whole life, I have struggled to understand the purpose of everything. I have asked God why a lot. I still do. But it is becoming clearer to me, what I am meant to do.

I know writing will be a huge part of getting everything started for me. It already has started something… it started you reading, didn’t it? And maybe understanding more. Of what, I don’t know. But I do hope it’s something.

My life, I am used to it by now. I know there will always be things I cannot do, always be things I WISH I could do. But you know what? It’s been years since I have last mourned this. I guess I am more comfortable with my body (in high school, I always regarded it as a prison I had no hope of escaping), and I am more aware of what I can or can’t do. Oh, there are times when I wish I can just drop everything and escape, just pick a place on a map and go there. I’d wish I can communicate verbally better every single day.

If wishes were horses, even beggars would ride…

But I know I am right where I am meant to be. And maybe, if I could communicate clearly, I wouldn’t have taken to writing so well.

What we see as curses aren’t necessarily so. Sometimes we have to dig a little deeper to get the blessing. 🙂

Advertisements

2 thoughts on “Made Perfect In Weakness

  1. How right you are about digging to find the blessings. I have learned instead of asking “Why me?” to ask “Why not me?”and to find what I can in a situation that can be for good.

    I am sure your writing will develop into a wonderful friend for good.

    Linda.

  2. Understanding more while understanding less is so true. Times have certainly changed, so have people.
    We have grown and become more tolerant sometimes but sheer frustration sets in other times.

    I am so glad you do write and you communicate very well through this. I hope it is enough for you and you can accept it as a gift

I'd love to know what you think!

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s